I'm ripe with things to say, the words rot and fall away

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
- Blink 182

Trepidatious. That's the word that occurred to me during my run to describe my mood this Christmas Eve. I don't think it's a word. Happy, hopeful, solitary, a trifle lonely and with a feeling the walls may cave in if only a pebble shakes loose. The run was ok. Yesterday was my first run in over a week. The only week I've taken off all year. I had this black death in my lungs and am still coughing. Plus my dog almost died and I had to care for her. But all good now.