I am so unmotivated. Work is killing me. KILLING ME. Spending all day in 80 - 85 degree heat on top of the teaching really takes its toll. Nobody gives a fuck that we are sitting in that heat all day. I applied at Pima yesterday to teach high-school and college level algebra. I want to help the Mariannes of the world!!
Saturday I taught and did lesson plans and paperwork at Pima for 5 hours, and then I tutored for 2 more. I am just so tired, I spent most of yesterday just relaxing. My house is a pigsty, my laundry isn't done, I am behind on my IEP (special ed) paperwork, and this week I have 4 meetings scheduled for after school plus probably 2 nights of tutoring. I am having a really hard time with my mood swings in the afternoon and evenings and I think it's due to the heat because I was better yesterday. I guess we'll see how I do today. Anyway the bottom line is that I am hanging on by my fingernails and just don't see how I can make myself run in the morning when I can barely get out of bed.
The good news is we are benchmark testing this week, so the class periods will be really short. And, I have next Thursday and Friday off for Rodeo Days. I'm going to sleep and sleep and sleep.
Well, I'll tell ya, having someone like you at Pima would have really made a difference for me. The summer I was trying to get through Algebra there, I had a perfectly nice Indian gentleman for a teacher. I couldn't understand him very well, nor the material. I failed the class and spent much of my time that summer listening to the Indigo Girls (Galileo) and just praying that I was letting my next life off the hook and that she would be really good at Algebra.
ReplyDeleteThat really made me smile in a sad kind of way. Nice is good, but a teacher who can explain the math is kind of important. But, I just found out that there will be severe cuts at the community college level starting this fall. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteRodeo days. Fucking Tucson.
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