I dont wanna know

I don't wanna know-oh-oh-oh
Who's takin you ho-oh -oh -ome
And lovin you so-oh - oh-oh
The way I used to love you no!
I don't wanna know
- Somebody and Adam Levine

I ALWAYS love me some Adam Levine. Sometimes in the war between gym and drinking, the drinking wins. And it did tonight. Work has been a giant asshole this week. I did get out of the office yesterday and run 2.5 before returning to finish the day, but it was an ugly struggly 2.5 and I wasn't proud. And tonight when I got home I drank wine instead. Cause that was a lot more fun.

Silly Season

I can see we're thinking about the same thing

Yes I see your expression when the phone rings 

We both know

There's something happening here

             - Queen Stevie Nicks

She has been anointed queen, no? If not, that should be rectified immediately! I downloaded my favorite songs of hers and tonight after a six mile elliptical kick ass and some abs work, I had myself s pretty good time in the hot tub grooving out. 

Have I told the blog about my new wireless headphones? I got some new wireless headphones which I now wear pretty much constantly around my neck, like the most bad ass necklace ever. My old ones only lasted three hours TOPS, but these last like 12!!! So I can wear them all day at work and then go work out in them and they don't die, plus they are water proof so hot tubbing is not interrupted! Granted, they are not likely helping my anti-social tendencies, but I'm not in a place right now where I give even a small shit. 

Anyway, I will leave you with this sweaty selfie I took tonight, and a fair warning that I might perhaps quote Queen Stevie all week. 

Don't people change?

There ain't no point in moving on
Till you've got somewhere to go

All those insecurities
that have held me down for so long
I can't say I've found a cure for these
But at least I know them so they're not so strong

There's one year of my life in these songs
And some of them are about you
- George Michael

This musical muse played during yoga yesterday and I loved it and I was mesmerized. So much so that I put it on repeat on my walk home from the gym. And it's so full of longing and melancholy that it made me feel like crying. And I listened again and again on the mountain today. I ran into an old classmate right in the middle. She looked beautiful and so happy it made me happy.

And I guess there's a road without you
But you once said there's a road back for every man
So here I am

My body

My body tells me no
But I won't quit cause I want more
- Young the Giant

I love this song to run to. I think my Blista Sista sent it - that woman has good taste in music. I still can't run cause of my ass-mar ($1 to anyone who gets that reference). I have to walk every quarter mile or so but I keep plugging away. It's actually quite a bit better since I got on this new medication, but I need to go back and get a higher dose I think. Anyhoo, today I'm doing my favorite workout - a 2 mile (uphill) run to the gym and then yoga. I'm gonna be very aware of what I eat tonight because yoga makes me so hungry. After last time I shoved food in my face for two hours.

I Just Knew Too Much

I remember when
I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that place
Even your emotions have an echo in so much space

          - Gnarls Barkley

An oldie but a goodie. I download lots of those, I have such a good time, I tell ya. 

This is my week. My gym has this app that's pretty cool and really has a good recording function for your work outs. If you are on a cardio machine you can even just snap a pic of the final readout and it'll add it to your log for you. Pretty cool, and I like being able to get weekly and monthly stats. My Fitness Pal can do this too, but I'm not nearly as consistent about recording my food as I am my workouts so I'm not as good about going into MFP, even though I do have it on my phone and I even subscribe to the upgraded version. 

Anyway, this is so boring and isn't everyone so glad I started blogging again?!

Gotta Keep On Walkin'

And I want you to know 

When your body fails you 

Know that I won't 

              -Loamlands

I'm really mad I didn't know about this band until now, since it looks like they must have broken up or something. They aren't touring. 

Anyway, I worked from home today and watched an entire season of "My 600 Pound Life", which for anyone who knows me, knows it is unusual for me to watch that much tv. This particular show makes me feel guilty, such horrid voueurism. But it's also like looking into a very strange and distorted mirror, and I look and look, trying to find what's a real reflection and what is just the funhouse. 

I did do some work, but did not go to the gym. I'll go tomorrow so I'll have four for the week. And I'll go with chris, which is good I want him to show me how to use this set of abdominal machines. 

Don't blow, mountain
Please don't show us, mountain
That the end
Is as close as it's ever been

                                  - Loamlands

I'm not committing to blogging more than once a week, just to be clear. And I'm not going to be all pressured to come up with a song every time, either, the pressure is too much! Although now I have Apple Music, and am thus unleashed on the world, and Sandy and I are total music sharing fools, so maybe it will be easier, I don't know.

Anyway, I am SO on board with this year's goal! Everything counts!! I have made a pretty firm commitment to myself to not do distance goals any more, they just suck all the joy out of working out. I started out with the 1000K running goal with Sandy and Chris and by the end of the year I was the only one realistically still in it and I was completely miserable. I ended the year well over the 1000K but only after agonizing about whether or not to "count" the damn elliptical miles I was forced to do throughout November because my foot wouldn't stop fussing at me, likely due to all the downhill running I had been doing.

So today I ran four miles (making three.... [what, what are we calling these? sessions? workouts?] for the week) and I tried very hard to go to yoga. I worked from home since it was single digits all day here with snow, but I drove to the gym, and then drove to yoga, but when I got there they were closed, probably assuming nobody would be venturing out in this weather just to pay someone to lay around and breathe (it was gentle yoga [please... like I am going to do actual hard yoga after already having run four miles, who the hell do you think I am?]). They underestimated me.

To my myriad fans, sorry I was away so long. Google stopped supporting the Blogger app, which is how I had been posting, using my phone. Then, with one iOS update or another, it stopped working. So I needed to do the thing where you can email posts to publish, but then the election happened, which obviously threw me in to a pit of dark despair from which I will likely never emerge fully, so I mean, what the hell are you gonna do, you know? If nothing matters, blogging certainly doesn't matter. (Although none of it made me skip a beat as far as working out, that continued uninterrupted and at my usual levels, and was really one of the only things that made me feel better, which I knew it would.)

Bones

There's bones in my closet but you hang stuff anyway
- John Bellion, Guillotine

The DJ on my alternative station last week listed this as his favorite and I'd never heard of the guy. Thanks to the wonder that is Apple Music, I was able to download it and I listened on my 3.5 mile neighborhood run/walk today which was very much not pretty. I enjoyed the music though and this line made me laugh. I guess we all want someone who hangs stuff with the bones, right? My closet probably doesn't have room for anything else though.

Booty hurty

I can't tell you how nice it was to go to yoga tonight and just do yoga. I didn't arrive sweaty and breathless and already tired from a run. I didn't have to worry about getting a run in after. I was noticeably less strong - it's been about three months since I last went - and I struggled with the push-ups. It wasn't a very difficult class but my muscles were fatigued after and I will likely have some soreness tomorrow. But I feel so relaxed. I may even want to run tomorrow. And I'm sure that some days I will want to run to yoga. But the key is I'm not bound to any plan. So many options!

Walking on

Walking on with no one left
Speaking softly underneath my breath
Sayin hey world you ain't seen nothing yet
Great, now it's raining.
- John Mayer - Whiskey, Whiskey, Whiskey 

Today I did a really cool hike in the Superstition Mountains for a couple hours with fat dog at my side. She's limping around tonight so I feel bad, I probably pushed her too far but she had a great time. Her running days are over but she still makes an energetic hiking companion, and everybody smiles at me when I'm with her, which makes it nice. I also spent an inordinate amount of time thinking up phallis jokes about this picture. But maybe it's just me. Anyhoo, I've been contemplating my goals for 2017. The goal of 1000k makes running a real grind, a chore. And it devalues any sort of other exercise. I want to have my exercise be challenging but also inspirational and enjoyable (stay with me here). For me, exercise can almost be spiritual at times, especially when I'm in nature. So I contemplated the reasons I exercise:  1.  To maintain good health, physical and mental. 2.  To maintain my weight and look good (call

me vain if you will). 3.  To be fit enough to do the things I enjoy like snowboarding and other sports.  These purposes are all served by a variety of activities. So my goal this year is to exercise purposefully 4-5 times per week. My default will likely still be running as it always has been, but hiking counts. Swimming counts. Snowboarding counts. And I need to incorporate yoga once per week as well, which counts. I know my body needs the strength and flexibility it provides. It is so decreed, 2017.