Walked two miles today. All goodness. Plan on doing treadmill tomorrow. Also, going to the doctor early tomorrow morning to tell him that my knee is still hurting and while I am still capable of running six miles on it, I would prefer that it not hurt.

Missy, that totally stinks about your toe!!! Can you walk? Or are you not supposed to do anything?

I can't go

I was rushing to get my classroom ready today, carrying a desk and lost my grip on it, and dropped the full weight of it on my big toe. It's swollen and purple and bloody, and I will lose my toenail but nothing is fractured or broken. I had to go to this workplace injury thing and they took an x-ray and such, and the doctor said I should be able to run in a week or so. I'm just glad it didn't land on the top of my foot because it would have broken something for sure! It hurts like a sonofabitch. So, unintended week off right when I was getting back on track. On the bright side, I get to wear flip-flops to work, and it's only a week. :)

PS I cannot believe how fast you two are. I can't wait to lose this weight so I can race to catch up with you!!

Treadmill Tuesday

I did four miles last night, 51 min. Yay me!

Ran five loops this morning, 2.85 miles. Time was 37:09, so about thirteen minute miles. Totally fine, but I really didn't want to go and it wasn't much fun. It's because I ate ice cream with some cookies and shit on top, for Rachael's birthday last night. I've noticed that whenever I eat sugar at night it makes me feel like total shit the next day. Which you would think would make me not eat it at night, but you would be wrong. Actually, the thing that irritates me more than anything is that I really didn't even want the stupid ice cream last night and could have said no to it, but it was Rach's bday and I was worried she would feel bad if I didn't eat it, which is totally fucking stupid, she probably would not have given two shits one way or the other..... but reacting to food like a normal person has never been my strong suit, I guess. Anyways, enough of that and moving on.

Yesterday I walked two miles. It was lovely.

Day 2

I made it through the entire day yesterday, without eating a bunch of crappy food! I got home from work and ate left over pork chops and mac & cheese. I'm hungry for dinner when I get home, so I decided, I'm just going to eat a dinner size meal at that point in the day. It makes sense since I start my days so early. Why should I try to hold off until "dinner time?" No reason. Then, about 7:30, when I wanted a bowl (or three) of frosted flakes, even though I wasn't particularly hungry, I checked in with myself and realized I was feeling anxious. I took a xanax. About 30 minutes later, I was actually hungry but was calm about it, so I ate a roma tomato, a can of green beans, and a banana. I felt perfectly satisfied and went to sleep an hour or so later. Why I woke up at the ungodly hour of 3:30 I don't know, but I'll take it since I have a lot of work to do and I am going to do 2 miles in a couple of minutes here. It has dried out a bit so it's actually pretty decent outside!
Sandy how many laps is a mile? How long does it take?
Marianne are you still having trouble with your moods on your days off from exercise?

I SWAM A MILE BITCHEZ!!!

that's all I have to say about that

I did it!

I got myself up and did 2 miles, and packed a healthy lunch. While I was running, I visualized all that gray depression and negativity flowing right out of my feet and into the pavement. I tried to replace it with the sunshine and the feeling of my muscles filling up with oxygenated blood and getting rid of all that yuck I've been feeding them. I am so relieved and thankful to be going back to work. I need the routine and structure. Like they say, one day at a time.

6.1

yes it was miraculously cool out today and even a breeze blowing. So I did my 6 mile route. I ran most of the way, meaning with walk breaks, but I never stopped and just walked the rest of the way. In fact I ran the last half mile. 84 min was my time. Which is ok considering it was still 90 degrees out.

GROSS

In bed for 2 days, took a shower yesterday for the first time since Tuesday. Trying. Trying. Not succeeding. Work starts tomorrow. Alarm set for 5:00, plenty of time for a 30-minute run. I need to go down to walking for my knees, but I just can't bear it.

45 minutes on the bike at the gym. My left calf (same leg as the sore knee) is really sore this morning, but nothing else is. I am assuming it has something to do with the knee. Nothing more to report.