I did it!

I got myself up and did 2 miles, and packed a healthy lunch. While I was running, I visualized all that gray depression and negativity flowing right out of my feet and into the pavement. I tried to replace it with the sunshine and the feeling of my muscles filling up with oxygenated blood and getting rid of all that yuck I've been feeding them. I am so relieved and thankful to be going back to work. I need the routine and structure. Like they say, one day at a time.

6.1

yes it was miraculously cool out today and even a breeze blowing. So I did my 6 mile route. I ran most of the way, meaning with walk breaks, but I never stopped and just walked the rest of the way. In fact I ran the last half mile. 84 min was my time. Which is ok considering it was still 90 degrees out.

GROSS

In bed for 2 days, took a shower yesterday for the first time since Tuesday. Trying. Trying. Not succeeding. Work starts tomorrow. Alarm set for 5:00, plenty of time for a 30-minute run. I need to go down to walking for my knees, but I just can't bear it.

45 minutes on the bike at the gym. My left calf (same leg as the sore knee) is really sore this morning, but nothing else is. I am assuming it has something to do with the knee. Nothing more to report.

dumbass

Today I got up at 8, read for awhile and had breakfast, and then intended to go to the gym. Instead, I took a nap. For 3 hours. Then I lounged around mentally preparing to go swim laps, but it was overcast outside and had been for awhile, so I thought maybe I'd take a chance and go running outside instead. By the time I actually got ready and went outside, it was sunny again but a little breeze was blowing. So I went ahead and went, and it was tough. I ran about half of it. 3.4

I will add that Sophie had a more difficult time than me - she attempted to lay down in every shady spot.

Another 6.27

Miles, that is. This morning. I did really well, my total time was 1:22:35. I did 13 minute 9 second miles..... but I will say this: my goal for next week is to slow it down just a bit. Because I had thought that I might go ahead and do another loop, which would have put me at 6.8 miles, but at the end of the 11 loops I did, I was COMPLETELY done in, could not go around again, and I know that is because I was going a bit too fast. SO, next week to focus on pace!! I took some Tylenol right before I did the miles and my knee did just fine, so I am not too worried about it at this point, although it still hurts, it did not completely go away.

Not sure what I am going to do tomorrow. I'll either walk a couple of miles or go to the gym and do the bike. Or maybe I'll do nothing.

I walked two miles today. I was getting my fill yesterday and the guy was talking to me quite a bit about the exercise. I told him my current routine (three runs and a bike) and he was saying he would really recommend exercise six times per week, but not running six times per week. He said keep the current routine and the other two days walk or bike or weight training or whatever else I want to do and it only should just be a half hour. I listened to him because I do like to exercise most days, but really do feel that it wouldn't be good to run more than I am running.

So, today I walked. And I have to say, it was just very much a joyous thing. I forgot how much I love walking, just walking and listening to whatever music I want, with my dog, doing what my body loves to do, enjoying the outside. I remember loving it even when it was really really hot in Phoenix. I think I remember blogging about how the good thing about walking in the summer was that even though it was freaking hot, it forced me to be outside and see the sunset and with that kind of heat my inclination was to just stay inside.

uninspired

3 mi at the gym this evening

Really struggling

I did a half mile swim last night and it was really nice. I'm really struggling with the heat. Even when I go do the treadmill I just sweat profusely and its so freaking hot. I'm just not having any fun with it and its feeling like a chore.

Food has been okay. ie yesterday I had two small banana muffins for bkfast, a turkey sand on wheat and a cookie for lunch, but then I ate a whole totinos pizza and made brownies after my swim.

Did three miles outside. My knee started fussing at me at about mile 2.5, but only on the uphills, the other parts were fine. I think my form was fine, I wasn't favoring that knee and even on the uphills it wasn't bad enough to distract me or make me worry. It was a good run! It was actually 3.42 miles. Time was 44:40.

My food last night was awful. I did fine during the day, but then came home and ate a whole bunch of sugar. So much it is embarrassing to say, but I will tell you. I ate almost a whole piece of fried chicken breast dipped in honey, a bowl of cocoa pebbles, about a cup of this chicken enchilada stuff with a whole crapload of cheese AND about five small peanut butter cookies. Christ, I'm surprised I can even walk this morning, much less run! I really do feel like shit though, my stomach hurts and I'm all gassy. Bring on the fill!!!!'

And in case anyone is really concerned thinking I am hurting myself what with the surgery and whatnot, you need to remember that there is really no restriction with that band on anything that has a high sugar content, it's just how it is. It's one of the limitations of the surgery. Typically stuff with a real high fat content doesn't have much restriction either, so the enchilada was fine because it had a lot of cheese. But also, I really do need a fill, I'm not getting the restriction I could be getting, which would, for the most part, stop these sorts of situations.