I didn't go

I decided against the gym this morning. I just wasn't up to it and my knee is still sore! Not as bad as it was, but it is still sore. I am going to do my three miles tomorrow outside, I'm really hoping it is all better by then. If not, I'll go back to the doc.

My calories ended up being okay yesterday, about 1600. And considering I worked off at least 500 of that with the run, that is all good with me. The big victories have been staying away from the desk candy and not eating cereal at night. I have been trying out Sandy's theory of just taking it off the "table" as it were. I just am telling myself that it is a simple fact that I don't eat desk candy. Like two plus two is four, Marianne doesn't eat desk candy. It's working surprisingly well. It's not a judgmental thing, it's not me beating myself up or telling myself that I shouldn't WANT the candy or going through endless self-talk about it. It is just very matter of fact.

Can I get a WOOT! for treadmill Tuesday!!!

Did four treadmill miles today. No incline, time was 54 minutes and something, I didn't take note of the seconds. My form was probably off, I think I was running on my toes a bit on that left foot, trying to compensate for the knee, which is still kind of twitchy, but nothing that is enough to concern me. God, it was so nice to run I could have cried with the joy! Missy, I did try to take shuffling steps with the running. I think it helped. So, tomorrow my plan is to go to the gym and do the bike and then do three mile Thursday. The knee was no more sore at the end of the run than it was at the beginning, so I know it is getting better. I bet by Thursday I'll be completely back to normal.

You know Missy, not that you are asking for my advice, but you might consider getting a gym membership and doing some cross-training. I know that before you were doing some awesome pilates and stuff like that. That way you are not always having to run, but you get your exercise in. I really like doing the bike sometimes, it's easy on the joints and just gives some variety to life. Plus, then you could work in some treadmill runs, which are easier on your body, lots of shock absorption and shit like that. Just my two cents!

My calories are good today, but we are having frozen pizza for dinner, which is always a bad sign.

2 miles, 2 days

I did 2 again this morning with hardly a complaint from the ol' knees. I may or may not take tomorrow off... I will have to see how I feel. This morning I did 15-minute miles, which was VERY encouraging!! I took my hairdresser's advice (she lost a ton of weight after having some kind of weight loss surgery, started running and never stopped) and didn't eat anything with less than 5 grams of fiber per serving today. Well, except for the muscle milk I drank after I ran. She said the reason I was so hungry at the end of the day was that I wasn't getting enough fiber. I've done really well so far today but it's only 4:30. So we'll see... I usually lose it around 6 p.m. and start eating everything in sight. I really feel satisfied right now so maybe there's hope!

2

is about all I could manage tonight. But I'm glad I went.

I called a doctor this morning and they were actually able to get me in! I am going here in about a half hour, so I'll let you all know how it goes. If he tells me to stop whining and lose some weight, I don't know what I will do. But the receptionist assured me that he is really good with sports medicine, so I am assuming he won't do that. But you never know! My hope is that he will just be able to tell me what to do and help me come up with a plan here. Because even the stupid exercise bike hurt my knee, so I just don't know what to do.

starting over

I just got back from 2 in a drizzling rain. It was really nice. I started thinking about starting over after I read John Bingham's post about that lady who was starting to run again after having a baby and gaining 100 lbs. I can't have the same expectations of my body now as I did at 200 lbs. So I went back to the beginning and I remembered that Jeff Galloway's advice had been to take short, shuffling steps during the running intervals. I focused on that throughout the run, and it made a big difference in how I felt afterwards. I don't feel exhausted like I had been, and my knee doesn't hurt at all. It feels a little bubbly, like there is too much air in the socket, which is how it felt at the very beginning. To top it all off, I went 16-minute miles, which is faster than I had been going! Marianne you might give it a try, to protect your knee... it may slow you down but maybe that's what you need. It will be worth it if you can avoid an injury because if that happens, you won't be able to go at all.

Sunday Blasphemy

For those who need inspiration. Goddess Nike, hear our prayer.
For those who need help with their eating habits. Goddess Nike, hear our prayer.
For those with physical ailments. Goddess Nike, hear our prayer.
For those in need of more fiber. Goddess Nike, hear our prayer.
For those in despair of ever getting back to where they were. Goddess Nike, hear our prayer.
For strength to increase speed and decrease time. Goddess Nike, hear our prayer.
For those who dream of being victorious. Goddess Nike, hear our prayer.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nike_(mythology)

My knee is still all touchy, despite all the ibuprofen and ice. So, this morning I did the bike. I did 20 miles in about 62 minutes. I'm going to get a brace for my knee at the store today and wear it all the time and also wear my athletic shoes all the time, including to work next week. That's my latest knee plan. If the brace makes a big difference then I'll see what I feel like I can do with the running. I think I'm driving Chris a little bit crazy with my obsession over my knee. He works out with knee pain all the time and doesn't understand what I am fussing about. But I never have knee pain!!

It really doesn't hurt that bad, truthfully. It just makes me worry.

Well, I've really gone and done it now. For whatever reason, my damn knee is still hurting and when I went to run on the treadmill today, I only went 1.7 miles. The knee hurt, although not so bad, but I was real worried about it and thinking it was going to give out or something or I was going to make it even worse.

So, I am icing it and taking ibuprofen and I am not doing my long tomorrow. I will see how it feels on Sunday. Stupid fucking knee! And stupid fucking hiking for causing problems with my stupid fucking knee!

I didn't go today either!

I woke up with a splitting headache and by the time it went away, it was too late to go. I could still pack my bag and go at work. I think I might do that. I will at least pack the bag and give myself the option.

I still plan on doing my log tomorrow, I think I am going to do another 6.2 rather than increase it this week. I'll increase it to 6.8 next week.